If you want to die, think twice, read this

As I sit here and think
I try so hard not to blink
the world is spinning round my head
sometimes I think it'd be better if I were dead.

As the sky is falling
and my mom is calling:
I think again, the same
I feel I am to blame
And everyone else would be so sad
It would be revenge against my dad.
But I would not be there to see it;
in it, there would be no pleasure,
these dreams, hallucinations
are all we have, all we have.
We are dying everyday, anyway,
so why end, change your fate

I know I'm now too late
for some, for many
but to save lives
it could be just about any
body, to stop the knives
as they near the veins,
swirving into the wrong lanes,
out the building window
to the ground below.

To be no more: why?
Life may be suffering,
but something is
better than nothing:
for those joyous moments
it is worth living.
and who knows
what the future holds...
When you feel so bad
you could die, know
that it can't get
any worse, but only
better.